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I'm an ordinary girl. Nothing special, just normal, boring, typical. Like most girls, I think a lot, and I feel a lot, and I hide it all a lot. I don't know what I am doing, I just feel like blogging again, just wanna see how this goes.

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hate...but love
Tuesday, June 21, 2011, 6:19 AM

I hate having to see everyday.
I hate having to smile everyday.
I hate having to speak everyday.
I hate having to listen everyday.

But

I love being able to see everyday.
I love being able to smile everyday.
I love being able to speak everyday.
I love being able to listen everyday.

To him.

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My thoughts...
Thursday, August 19, 2010, 7:53 AM

You stole my heart,
Broke it into two,
Gave half back to me,
But hid the other half.

Tell me where you hid it,
I need the other half,
I know you don't need it,
You already have another.

Give me back my heart,
Even broken I will take it,
I'll get some glue and with some help,
I'll patch it back together.

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Yesterday you were so sweet to me,
And for the rest of the day,
I was filled with sugar rush.

Today you broke me,
Shattered me completely,
Leaving a bitter taste that lasted the whole day.

Tomorrow I'll see you,
And the sugar rush and bitterness you left me before,
Would be forgotten as if I never felt it before.

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I saw you standing there,
At place we used to meet at,
But I know that today,
The one you're waiting for,
Isn't me.

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You wanted to know how I felt,
I wanted to show you how I felt,
But all I could do was smile.
I'm sorry.

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Because when I saw the look upon your face,
I fell in love with you all over again,
Or maybe,
I never fell out of love with you in the 1st place.

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I'm smiling,
But inside I'm breaking.

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scribbles...
7:38 AM

When you're there,
I'm looking at everything,
But I'm seeing nothing.
When you speak,
I hear every sound,
But I listen to nothing.

Nothing but you...

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Silence,
Sweet,
Overwhelming,
Nostalgic,
and sad.

And as I sit there with my thoughts array,
It envelopes me, bringing me to it's cold embrace.

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eyes shut,
darkness surrounding me,
feeling the wet claws of the storm,
digging into my flesh,
making scars, leaving it's mark.
hearing the painful cries of thunder,
feeling it tear into my soul.
And a bright flash of light,
I open my eyes,
and it's all over.

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Open a book,
Word's you'll see.
Open your eyes,
And Images will appear.
Open your mind,
And you'll know life.

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Untitled
Tuesday, March 16, 2010, 10:03 AM

It never mattered when or how or where it really happened,
It only matters that you smile and never ever frown.

It never mattered who it's for or whoever made it happened,
It only matters when you smile truly from within.

And it will never matter if it will ever be for me,
It only matters that I can still see you smiling beautifully.

xoxo

random post...bored...cnt sleep... just wanted to work my brain a little


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Just Being Sarah
Friday, March 12, 2010, 5:08 AM

Sarah wants to be Sarah...
but what is Sarah?
Sarah's head hurts...
Sarah feels down...
but how to show it she don't know...
She just knows to to smile...
Smiling is healthy...but it's stupid to...
especially when it's the only thing u know how to do...
stupid...
useless...

and i close my eyes,
and try to picture something,
and i see your smile,
and i know mine it'll never be.
-sarah-

I have a new friend...
his name is daniel...
he is cute...i guess...
he plays the guitar writes songs and poems...
and is a st.john member...
he is as lame as can possibly be...
and somehow still very cool...
when he read this he's gonna be so bangga...
coz I said he's cool...xDDD


Quote of the day:-
Smiles are good for health.
-Sarah Ng-

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Something I scribbled this morning. with some help...
Tuesday, January 12, 2010, 5:33 AM

Once an open door,
now closed,
Once an open book,
now full of mysteries.

Closing of eyes,
To scenes being shown.
Closing of ears,
To words being spoken.

Closing familiar paths,
Opening new ones.
Forgetting old memories,
Creating new ones.

Memories once new,
memories now old.
Once a stranger,
and now a friend.

special thanks to:-
♥ Teow Shuet Yin, Emily.
♥ Yong Jian Fang, Cindel.

p/s. I tweaked it abit.

-xoxo-

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What passes through Sarah's mind when she is Bored...
Saturday, November 21, 2009, 10:44 PM

Remember I once posted something about when I was bored?? (click here for post)
Yeah..this is part 2...

  • I wanna sleep...
  • I'm gonna diee...
  • I'm bored!!
  • I'm gonna annoy people for fun!!
  • noo...I dunwan to be hated!!
  • arghh...WHAT! am i doing??
  • what to do? what to do? what to do?????
  • I wish I could fly...
  • How nice if I could turn back time...
  • Wyeeee wonder woman!!!
  • gahhh...boredom killss!!!
  • I'm gonna dieeee!!!
  • Why can't I sleep!!!??
  • INSOMNIAA!!!
  • shhh shhh shhh...um um um...MUSIC!!
  • nahh not working...
  • Boring Music??...not working...
  • Music is never boring...
  • History??...
  • Nope Gave back d books dii!!
  • phoooooiiieeee...
  • Blog!...
  • Okay write a dumb post...
  • Something Pointless...
  • Something Stupid...
  • Something like this!!...=p...
  • Meaning the person reading this either has nothing better to do...or is stupid...
  • Personally I prefer the latter...
  • PSYCH!!
  • Which reminds me...I wanna watch tht show!!!!!!
Okay thats it...
thanx for putting up with me...^^ byeeeeeeeeee =p

-xoxo-

I'm over him!!...^^
so yea not floatin fallin nor crashin...!!^^

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Floatin' or Fallin'??
Thursday, November 19, 2009, 3:19 AM

People start to think they are falling in love at any given point of life...
What is that all about anyway?...
Recently, around a month or two back?, I wrote a post about Love...(click to see it)
Yea so after sounding so pro-like back then...
I'm starting to wonder again...
Really what is it...
What if love isn't really love...
and it's really actually just another illusion created from all of out humanly wants and needs...
what if the perfect illusion isn't so perfect and it crashes right when we need it the most...
If you're also wondering why I'm full of questions...
It's cause I just woke up with all these questions flooding my mind...
Why you ask??What kind of dreams did I have...??
Truth is I don't know...==
how crappy...xp Why can I never remember my dreamsss...
O.O okayy I wavered away from my topic...
Okay so back to where I was...
What if falling in love isn't as great as it sounds...??
People like to fall in love...
but don't they realize that when falling you're bound to hit the ground and crash sooner or later?...
Love isn't a carnival ride where once it goes down it will bounce back up again without hurting you..
It's something that's so hard and intense...
just being around it can crush your insides...
so why do people want it so much??
is it really just for the floating feeling you get before you realize you're falling??
is it really all just for the floating feeling??
recently I felt that floating feeling again...
I noticed the symptoms and decided I should stay grounded..
Since well...
if you float you're bound to fall sooner or later...
like a balloon running out of helium...
yikess...
now I'm going science...eeeeessssshhh...
okay okay...
I have filled my needs for today...
I'm gonna do something now...IDK wad yet...
*blinks*
wad to dooooo!!!??? Owh i know I'll rot...
bored...
rots...
before turning into a complete pile of ashes...she hits post!!...O.O...
okay lame...but so what!?? don't like it?? SUE ME...=P

-xoxo-

I don't want to continue floating into oblivion...
the person I'm floating for...
I hope he holds me grounded...
so I won't float away den fall and kill everything...><

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Love??
Saturday, October 10, 2009, 10:17 AM

wyeeeeeeee...
I'm stealing justin's post title...^^
Oh and I also wanna answer that question!!

hmm...What do I think Love Is??

I think love is when you're afraid of holding someone cause you don't want them to break...
When you care so much for someone you can forget to care for yourself...
When you feel happy just seeing the other person happy...
When you feel like dying by just seeing the other person slightly down...
When you can even give up the person just for she/he to be happy...
Love is when no matter how hard you try...
You just can't bring yourself to be selfish...

anyways back to my post...

Insomnia is haunting me...
blame it on my infatuation/love sickness...*see my last post*
conclusion...
LOVE IS BAD FOR HEALTH!!
or maybe it's infatuation...
either ways it's still bad for health...
but I'm not that much of a health freak anyways...sooo...
I have no idea what the point of this post is...
I might be in denial...*again see last post*
anywaysssss...
la la laaaaaaa...
lol idk wad to sayy!!! omgggg!!!
Sarah has ran out of words!!!! noooooooooooo!!!!!!!!
omg omg omg wad to do wad to do wad to do!!!
eh eh...
I haven't ran out of words...
I've been typing!!
O.O...oooooo
okay lame random pointless...
how dumb...
i'm dumb...what to do??
O.o...
sarah's a dumb dumb...><
-xoxo-

In denial...
for the first time in a long time...
I just wanna slit my wrists open and watch the blood flow out...
just to keep my mind off some things...
I'm desperately desperate...
I want to sleep...
but I can't fall asleep...
I want to cry...
but I feel like all my tears have dried up...
so all I can do is this...

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Changes
Saturday, October 3, 2009, 11:49 PM

Been listening to old songs from the 90s lately...
Reminiscing about the happy days...
Back when I was a kid and everything was easy...
When a song was just a tune with some words...
now to me a song actually means something...with or without words...
Everything seems different...
Even the songs from then...
I guess everything does seem different when you see it from a different point of view...
I realize how much things have changed...
How different things are now compared to then...
I realize how much I've changed...
How far I've traveled since then...
How much I've grown...
The variety of people I've met and befriended...
The people I love...
And the people I hate...
The people I laugh with and the people I cry with...
Each and everyone of us...different from when we first met each other...
I guess what I'm trying to say is...
Everyone and everything changes...
No one can stop it...
It's only a part of life...
So don't complain about changes...
Instead...
Embrace change and learn to live and love it...
If you don't...
Well...
You'll probably be a very bitter person...
Even then you still change...

xoxo

People change,
People forget,
Then they make new memories and embrace changes...
Whether you change for the better or the worse...
It's bound to happen someday...
So LOVE yourself,
And you'll know happiness~~

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