Runaway

Come home happiness, Come home sorrow

Come home to the rest of your life

I'm an ordinary girl. Nothing special, just normal, boring, typical. Like most girls, I think a lot, and I feel a lot, and I hide it all a lot. I don't know what I am doing, I just feel like blogging again, just wanna see how this goes.

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hate...but love

Tuesday, June 21, 2011, 6:19 AM

I hate having to see everyday.

I hate having to smile everyday.

I hate having to speak everyday.

I hate having to listen everyday.

But

I love being able to see everyday.

I love being able to smile everyday.

I love being able to speak everyday.

I love being able to listen everyday.

To him.

Labels: life, love, mood swings, random

My thoughts...

Thursday, August 19, 2010, 7:53 AM

You stole my heart,

Broke it into two,

Gave half back to me,

But hid the other half.

Tell me where you hid it,

I need the other half,

I know you don't need it,

You already have another.

Give me back my heart,

Even broken I will take it,

I'll get some glue and with some help,

I'll patch it back together.

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Yesterday you were so sweet to me,

And for the rest of the day,

I was filled with sugar rush.

Today you broke me,

Shattered me completely,

Leaving a bitter taste that lasted the whole day.

Tomorrow I'll see you,

And the sugar rush and bitterness you left me before,

Would be forgotten as if I never felt it before.

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I saw you standing there,

At place we used to meet at,

But I know that today,

The one you're waiting for,

Isn't me.

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You wanted to know how I felt,

I wanted to show you how I felt,

But all I could do was smile.

I'm sorry.

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Because when I saw the look upon your face,

I fell in love with you all over again,

Or maybe,

I never fell out of love with you in the 1st place.

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I'm smiling,

But inside I'm breaking.

Labels: emo, life, love, mood swings, poem, random, sad, words

close your eyes and count to 3

Sunday, March 14, 2010, 8:40 AM

When I was a kid

There was this one girl at my kindergarten.

She had the same name as me (Xiao Juin NOT Sarah)

but unlike me she was always gloomy

so one day I asked her why was she always sad.

She said she's not...

it's just that she was too shy to make friends and she doesn't have anyone to play with...

so I told some of my friends to come over and we played together...

we became best friends...

One day I cut my finger with a pencil sharperner (don't ask me how...i don't rmb)

And I didn't cry but my teacher saw d blood and a small foldable blade in my pencil case...

She immediately thought i use the blade and accidentally cut myself...

I got yelled at for bringing a blade and I started crying...

my best friend comforted me and told me not to cry...

then she told me to close my eyes...

after awhile she asked me to count to 3 then open...

I opened my eyes and everyone was holding candies for me...

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Remember when we used to laugh because it was funny

and not because you didn't wanna hurt the other person's feelings?

Remember when we can be honest to each other

and not worry what the other would think?

Remember when everyone would easily agree on helping you

and NOT ask for something in return??

Remember when we can all sit together and play,

and not care if the other is Fat or Thin or Ugly?? (no offence)

Remember when we's get so excited

just for ONE piece of chewing gum?

Remember when we'd stick books up during exams so no one could see our answers

but in actual fact we're looking at the answers??

Don't you miss those days?

The days we can laugh, cry and tease each other

with no hard feelings conceived.

The days when we don't even know of the word F*ck

and the word stupid was a MAJOR crime.

The days when the word graduation didn't even come to mind?

Days when you couldn't even pronounce graduation...lol

I miss those days...

So much...

Today when I'm scared or am sad...

I still close my eyes and count to 3...

and even until today,

it never fails to calm me down...

am doing it now...

thunder is crazy loud...><

Labels: friends, life, words

Just Being Sarah

Friday, March 12, 2010, 5:08 AM

Sarah wants to be Sarah...

but what is Sarah?

Sarah's head hurts...

Sarah feels down...

but how to show it she don't know...

She just knows to to smile...

Smiling is healthy...but it's stupid to...

especially when it's the only thing u know how to do...

stupid...

useless...

and i close my eyes,

and try to picture something,

and i see your smile,

and i know mine it'll never be.

-sarah-

I have a new friend...

his name is daniel...

he is cute...i guess...

he plays the guitar writes songs and poems...

and is a st.john member...

he is as lame as can possibly be...

and somehow still very cool...

when he read this he's gonna be so bangga...

coz I said he's cool...xDDD

Quote of the day:-

Smiles are good for health.

-Sarah Ng-

Labels: friends, life, mood swings, random

...

Tuesday, November 24, 2009, 8:25 AM

screw titles...
they ruin the writing mood by making me think of something to name d post...
anyways...
I really don't know how to put this...
I have this majorly uncomfortable feeling in the pit of my stomach...
truthfully it's the worst feeling ever!...*no it's not menstrual cramps*
I feel like my inside are being crushed and stretched at the same time...
I want to cry for no reason at all...
but for some reason I'm laughing...
it's like my body cannot sync with my brain I feel sick and nauseous...
I just want to throw up and crash but I can't for some reason...
arghh...
I hate this...
I hate me...
I hate life...
No I don't...
aiih...
forget it...><
screw everything...

-xoxo-

when I'm not doing anything you pop into my head...
when I am doing something...
I somehow connect everything to you...
why is this happening...aren't I s'posed to be over you?...
why do you do this to me...??
screw it all!

Labels: life, rants, sad, sick sick sick