Come home happiness, Come home sorrow
Come home to the rest of your life
I'm an ordinary girl. Nothing special, just normal, boring, typical. Like most girls, I think a lot, and I feel a lot, and I hide it all a lot. I don't know what I am doing, I just feel like blogging again, just wanna see how this goes.
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hate...but love
Tuesday, June 21, 2011, 6:19 AM
I hate having to see everyday.I hate having to smile everyday.
I hate having to speak everyday.
I hate having to listen everyday.
But
I love being able to see everyday.
I love being able to smile everyday.
I love being able to speak everyday.
I love being able to listen everyday.
To him.
Labels: life, love, mood swings, random
My thoughts...
Thursday, August 19, 2010, 7:53 AM
You stole my heart,
Broke it into two,
Gave half back to me,
But hid the other half.
Tell me where you hid it,
I need the other half,
I know you don't need it,
You already have another.
Give me back my heart,
Even broken I will take it,
I'll get some glue and with some help,
I'll patch it back together.
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Yesterday you were so sweet to me,
And for the rest of the day,
I was filled with sugar rush.
Today you broke me,
Shattered me completely,
Leaving a bitter taste that lasted the whole day.
Tomorrow I'll see you,
And the sugar rush and bitterness you left me before,
Would be forgotten as if I never felt it before.
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I saw you standing there,
At place we used to meet at,
But I know that today,
The one you're waiting for,
Isn't me.
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You wanted to know how I felt,
I wanted to show you how I felt,
But all I could do was smile.
I'm sorry.
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Because when I saw the look upon your face,
I fell in love with you all over again,
Or maybe,
I never fell out of love with you in the 1st place.
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I'm smiling,
But inside I'm breaking.
Labels: emo, life, love, mood swings, poem, random, sad, words
Why...
7:16 AM
Why is it that I think of you so much?Why is it that I hurt so bad?
Why is it that even though I know I shouldn't...I still do?
Why is it that even though I don't want to...I still do?
Why is it that there is no way for me to release the hurt and the pain?
Why is it that there are no ways for me to tell him how I feel?
Why is it that he gets to be happy but I just get pain?
Why is it that he can make new memories while I cling to distant ones?
Why is it that no matter how much I want to forget I cannot?
Why is it that no matter where I look I see you?
Why is it that after so long I still want you so much ?
Floatin' or Fallin'??
Thursday, November 19, 2009, 3:19 AM
People start to think they are falling in love at any given point of life...What is that all about anyway?...
Recently, around a month or two back?, I wrote a post about Love...(click to see it)
Yea so after sounding so pro-like back then...
I'm starting to wonder again...
Really what is it...
What if love isn't really love...
and it's really actually just another illusion created from all of out humanly wants and needs...
what if the perfect illusion isn't so perfect and it crashes right when we need it the most...
If you're also wondering why I'm full of questions...
It's cause I just woke up with all these questions flooding my mind...
Why you ask??What kind of dreams did I have...??
Truth is I don't know...==
how crappy...xp Why can I never remember my dreamsss...
O.O okayy I wavered away from my topic...
Okay so back to where I was...
What if falling in love isn't as great as it sounds...??
People like to fall in love...
but don't they realize that when falling you're bound to hit the ground and crash sooner or later?...
Love isn't a carnival ride where once it goes down it will bounce back up again without hurting you..
It's something that's so hard and intense...
just being around it can crush your insides...
so why do people want it so much??
is it really just for the floating feeling you get before you realize you're falling??
is it really all just for the floating feeling??
recently I felt that floating feeling again...
I noticed the symptoms and decided I should stay grounded..
Since well...
if you float you're bound to fall sooner or later...
like a balloon running out of helium...
yikess...
now I'm going science...eeeeessssshhh...
okay okay...
I have filled my needs for today...
I'm gonna do something now...IDK wad yet...
*blinks*
wad to dooooo!!!??? Owh i know I'll rot...
bored...
rots...
before turning into a complete pile of ashes...she hits post!!...O.O...
okay lame...but so what!?? don't like it?? SUE ME...=P
-xoxo-
I don't want to continue floating into oblivion...
the person I'm floating for...
I hope he holds me grounded...
so I won't float away den fall and kill everything...><
the person I'm floating for...
I hope he holds me grounded...
so I won't float away den fall and kill everything...><
Labels: emo, love, random, rants
Love??
Saturday, October 10, 2009, 10:17 AM
wyeeeeeeee...I'm stealing justin's post title...^^
Oh and I also wanna answer that question!!
hmm...What do I think Love Is??
I think love is when you're afraid of holding someone cause you don't want them to break...
When you care so much for someone you can forget to care for yourself...
When you feel happy just seeing the other person happy...
When you feel like dying by just seeing the other person slightly down...
When you can even give up the person just for she/he to be happy...
Love is when no matter how hard you try...
You just can't bring yourself to be selfish...
anyways back to my post...
Insomnia is haunting me...
blame it on my infatuation/love sickness...*see my last post*
conclusion...
LOVE IS BAD FOR HEALTH!!
or maybe it's infatuation...
either ways it's still bad for health...
but I'm not that much of a health freak anyways...sooo...
I have no idea what the point of this post is...
I might be in denial...*again see last post*
anywaysssss...
la la laaaaaaa...
lol idk wad to sayy!!! omgggg!!!
Sarah has ran out of words!!!! noooooooooooo!!!!!!!!
omg omg omg wad to do wad to do wad to do!!!
eh eh...
I haven't ran out of words...
I've been typing!!
O.O...oooooo
okay lame random pointless...
how dumb...
i'm dumb...what to do??
O.o...
sarah's a dumb dumb...><
-xoxo-
In denial...
for the first time in a long time...
I just wanna slit my wrists open and watch the blood flow out...
just to keep my mind off some things...
I'm desperately desperate...
I want to sleep...
but I can't fall asleep...
I want to cry...
but I feel like all my tears have dried up...
so all I can do is this...
for the first time in a long time...
I just wanna slit my wrists open and watch the blood flow out...
just to keep my mind off some things...
I'm desperately desperate...
I want to sleep...
but I can't fall asleep...
I want to cry...
but I feel like all my tears have dried up...
so all I can do is this...
Labels: emo, love, mood swings, random, words