Come home happiness, Come home sorrow
Come home to the rest of your life
I'm an ordinary girl. Nothing special, just normal, boring, typical. Like most girls, I think a lot, and I feel a lot, and I hide it all a lot. I don't know what I am doing, I just feel like blogging again, just wanna see how this goes.
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Talk about dead blog...
Saturday, February 28, 2015, 4:31 PM
I'm not a hundred percent, but if I'm not mistaken, the last time I blogged at all was the beginning of 2013.So much has happened since then. For starters, I am now living in the UK, studying. Turned 21 a few months ago, made many new friends, got into some bad habits...
Anyway, I'm constantly homesick. I think. I'm not sure exactly what it is I am feeling, but I know I don't like it. I feel alone, and empty, and completely dead inside. I feel unmotivated to wake up each morning...the thought of having to live another second just...bores me. I want to end it, the boredom, the emptiness, the loneliness, the feeling of living day by day and wishing something will happen so that I don't die on the inside, so I won't feel like helping myself die on the outside.
I want someone here with me, to support me when I'm in need, to accompany me when I'm alone, to be with me just because. I don't want to be alone anymore.
Silence drowning out the storm,
Wishing for something, joy, sorrow or pain.
Standing and waiting, pen poised.
Praying for change, Ending the rain.